Take a moment and make a list of all the things that you need to be happy right now.
All the things that you need to have.
All the things that you need to discard.
All the people you need to act differently.
All the behaviors you need to change about yourself.
All the situations that need to be different.
All the things that you need to achieve.
Just take some time and list it all down.
Notice how all of these things have created a bondage for you. They have made you a slave.
You happiness is an internal phenomenon. It is independent on the external circumstances. Happiness is just a decision that you need to take in a moment to moment basis. If you are constantly waiting for things to change for you to feel happy, take a look at the list you have made and assess how much time do you think you will need before everything on your list is just the way you want? Does this list ever stop growing? One thing in the list might be fulfilled and a new desire takes its place. It is never ending.
Your happiness doesn’t lie in the future when everything on your list is fulfilled. It lies in this moment, in the here and now. It is when you realise that it is not dependent on any of the items on the list.
It happens when you realise that this list is what is creating your unhappiness.